Crazy about Yoo Ah In

He is one form of distraction I’ve been having for over a month now! YOO AH IN as MOON JAE SHIN in the recently concluded drama series Sungkyunkwan Scandal has been occupying most of my netizen life! Lo and behold, I recently read an article from 10Asia and decided to share this overwhelming addiction. I think this is the only thing I can do to ease this insane love I have for him.

One of the qualities I truly admire in an actor is his line of thought, his mindset that usually separates him from the rest out there. Good looks are merely icing on a cake because I love substance MORE! Yoo Ah In definitely is one such man! From his interview, I learned that his screen name Yoo Ah-in comes from a German word “ein” meaning “unique”. He surely does live up to his name! Moreover, thanks to this article,  I personally think Yoo Ah In can conquer the world by just being him. I love that he’s vocal and frank talking about issues that are not usually discussed by celebrities. I believe he’s very passionate about his ideals and he’s views are very interesting. I like that you can learn from him, he’s not just sprouting flowery words. Though he fears about most of what he writes, I admire that his courageous enough to still speak up and just write still. That no matter the outcome, he’s able to voice himself with so much conviction.

Kudos to YOO AH IN!

If we have more youth just like this man, we are in for a very bright tomorrow.

10: Let’s talk about your drama. (laugh) You mentioned before that you took on “SungKyunKwan Scandal” with the determination that you would play the role of Moon Jae-shin. What was it about that character that was so appealing to you?
I think I was drawn to who he is within the drama. He would be away from the other students at the royal academy of SungKyunKwan, climb a gingko tree and sit there alone, as well as wear his clothes and hair differently but it’s not because he wanted to stand out. At the same time, it was refreshing that he was only an outsider at SungKyunKwan, not from the entire world. I become curious about why he lived in that space like that when he had taken an exam to enter it and I felt he was similar to me.

10: SungKyunKwan is sort of a space you could call a school.
But it wasn’t a school that the entire population went to or similar to the schools we went to. It was where people took extremely elite courses during the Joseon Dynasty. From what I know, there were less than 500 students at the academy and you got into politics as soon as you graduate from there so it was probably like law school. Being an outsider there is different from the kid who stares out the window at an ordinary school since it’s usually not easy for kids taking such elite courses to act like that. (laugh) They’re too smart and want to become mainstream, as well as being sly enough to know how to act in the right way at the right time. So I was very curious of what Jae-shin was thinking, how he could be so different alone.

10: Then what did you feel or discover while acting his role?
Towards the end I came to feel that he’s a very tender-hearted person, that he’s a real kid. (laugh) That’s why it was difficult to control my acting in showing how he has trouble expressing his emotions versus him also being straightforward and blunt. I also think I may have gone too deep in terms of emotional expression when portraying how he feels towards Yoon-hee (Park Min-young). In dramas, female characters are usually slow when it comes to love but I too had played so little roles in which my character loves someone. (laugh) I thought a lot about how to shoot the scene where in the 19th episode, I drop off Yoon-hee in front of the prison Seon-joon (Park Yu-chun) is at and tell her to go see him by herself. I talked to the director a lot about this, on whether it’s something that Jae-shin would actually do or if it just couldn’t be helped because according to the plot of the story, he has to pull back.

10: I actually was curious on what it was that Jae-shin felt for Yoon-hee.
Yoon-hee was a character Jae-shin had been interested in from the first moment they met, even before he developed romantic feelings for her. He used to be a guy who has his back turned against the world, regards all students at SungKyunKwan in the same way, and is prejudiced about them just like they are about him. But I think he changes after meeting Yoon-hee who has a lot of spunk, is funny and interesting. And in that process, he develops feelings for her, then finds out she’s actually a girl, so I think he came to want to protect and care for the lovely eyes and heart she has. And in both the drama and original comic, Yoon-hee is meant to end up with Seon-joon so according to that outcome, I tried to show that he also wants to protect her in a brotherly way.

10: It wasn’t only the romance but also the process of how the characters grow that served as the framework to “SungKyunKwan Scandal.” The moment that left a strong impression about Jae-shin in particular was when in tears, he says to his dad, whom he resented since the death of his older brother, “I acted up that I was hurting more than you. I was wrong. And I was sure that I loved brother more than you did. I was wrong about that as well.”
What I felt was so child-like about Jae-shin was how poor he was at expressing himself and how he didn’t know what to do about how he felt. He was so much of an idealist that he was trapped inside his own thoughts and felt, ‘Nobody hurts more than I do. Nobody is having a tougher time than I am. My pain is the worst.’ Because surprisingly, people with such pain or sadness feel that they’re more superior. There was a time that I felt like that as well. Of course, I don’t think Jae-shin has matured that much. But he’s someone who has a hard time taking even a single step forward while others are taking ten, so even that single step is extremely significant. I think it’s significant in that he tore down the walls around him, came to realize that his pain wasn’t all that existed in this world, that he was able to talk about it in tears, and smile afterwards.

10: Writing is an act which contains your will to express something that you feel inside. You had mainly been writing on your Cyworld account and started writing on Twitter a few months ago. How has that been?
When I’m away from home, I’m in dire need of the time and space that will let me go back to being myself. For three to four months, I felt uncomfortable not being able to live my life as myself. So being able to voice what I think and communicate with people through Twitter as Uhm Hong-shik, as actor Yoo A-in, was very comforting. In a way, it’s a blessing and honor, and I learned a lot from the thousands of responses I receive from my single comment. Of course, some were just light or routine remarks but quite a lot of the responses awakened me and taught me lessons, as well as reminding me of what a closed person I am. So, I’m going to stay on Twitter. (laugh)

10: I actually think it’s not easy to do Twitter because thousands and ten of thousands of people are reading it.
A lot of people want me to stay on Twitter but at the same time, it makes me speak up less. And it’s not easy to go against that. It’s not like I was born as an independence fighter or anything of the sort. I like what’s comfortable and I wish I had nothing to worry about. But that really means I would have isolated myself and I know it’ll turn me into a miserable person so I sometimes force myself to write. It’s not because I’m dying to write but because not being able to makes me very unhappy so I’m trying to continuously tell myself ‘I can do it, I can speak up, I will keep speaking, I know you want to put a gag in my mouth but I will keep speaking, I will not lose, I am not incompetent.’ It’s very hard work.

10: So are you saying that it’s difficult to be your real self but you want to continuously make sure that you are being real?
Yes, and not just about acting. I think it’s about everything about being someone in his twenties. I actually have a desire to just live a very peaceful life. I want to live comfortably, and of course I also sometimes think that I would like to make money by just smiling pretty but I think I also trying to push such thoughts out and try to force myself to be someone in his twenties. I’m someone who matured early and I know the rules to living life tactfully but I have to let go of them. I’m in the dilemma of being too realistic versus trying not to stay realistic because being mature means that you know the answers so you will stop and settle to protect what you have but that’s immature. I think the true way to be mature is to continuously seek answers, ask questions and go forward as well as fail at times. That’s why I wish people would use the world ‘youth’ in a different way. When people say, “He’s still in his youth,” it usually means that person is immature and a passionate idealist but I wish it could be used to refer to young people who are truly mature and are upright.

10: You’ve also written about labor and human rights-related issues on your Twitter account. And they’re thoughts that anybody with a mind for social issues could have but celebrities are usually branded as being ‘political’ the moment they mention speak their mind on such matters. this could end up being very bothersome for you so aren’t you worried about that?
I am. I’m worried and scared to death. I can’t sleep at night after writing such things. (laugh) But from what I judge, someone who can’t do that is dead, or at least partially. I want to live a decent life, not just be alive because I’m breathing. I even think I should be allowed to talk about politics because like actress Ko Hyun-jung’s character says in SBS TV series “The President,” it’s irresponsible to regard politics as a bad thing when we’re all citizens living under strict political control. I won’t do something just because it’s good or criticize sharply just because something’s a social issue. I just think that I can at least play the role of introducing what I can truly relate to, express what I feel feel and share thoughts with other people. Although it’s sad that that’s very difficult to do in the society we live in and the celebrity system I’m in.

10: Well if you’ve had a hard enough of a time that you never wanted to be an actor ever again, what has pushed you to move forward so far?
I think I’ve been honest. (laugh) I was sure of my convictions and the path I need to take, and the reason I could bear through everything was probably because I wasn’t in a rush. For example, people think they can sacrifice and compromise ten years to achieve a huge and ideal dream ten years later. Going to school is similar. You could spend that time in a happier way but you sacrifice yourself to an extent for the future. But I also think that from that process, you can definitely protect your convictions and take a step closer to your goal while living a life you’re happy with. And it doesn’t have to come when I’m 25 but when I’m 35 or 45. I also think it’s better to remember who I am and take a slower path rather than losing myself while trying to shorten that time period. Although I may talk right now as if I know something, I too am not sure of how I’ll change. But I think celebrities saying that they won’t forget their original resolution is different from them saying they will always be humble. Original resolution should be at the bottom of everyone’s hearts and it’s about knowing what you’re working for, what you’re looking for and what your happiness is about. That’s why although it’s supposed to be most important, it gradually becomes second important then third important… then you start to change. So no matter how tough of a time I’m having, I need to make sure it stays my priority! (laugh) Even if I may let the rest of me become more realistic.

10: What do you think you were like before you started acting? About ten years ago?
Yoo A-in:
I think I was similar to who I am now. I was the ordinary loser who blended in well amongst the other 40 to 50 students in my class but when I delve into more detailed memories and proofs of who I was in my past, it makes me think that people’s nature does not change easily. (laugh) I once came across something I wrote for evaluation during ethics class when I was around 14. I had written about how I would achieve my dream but it wasn’t about ‘what’ I would become. “I think it is people’s job to find true happiness,” is what I wrote. I think it was because that’s all I needed to think about back then. And school was a much smaller and stable form of society than society actually is. Not that I liked school that much either. (laugh)

10: What did you not like about it so much?
Because a lot of things about it was unnatural. I had never opted for any of the things that happened to me but they just happened as if they were natural occurences. Of course, education is mandatory which is why my mother sent me to school and I would have been in big trouble if she hadn’t. (laugh) But I don’t think schools teach you how to think. It’s a thought that comes to me when I’m writing as well. I write mainly for myself on my Cyworld account and to communicate with others through my Twitter account but it’s not because I need answers. And even if I was seeking for an answer, I don’t think you should expect to find it easily. I wish people would not say, “This is difficult. I don’t know what this is about. Please explain in a simpler way,” after taking a mere glance at what I write. What fun would there be in finding what the answer to something is as soon as you look at it? Words are easy to written down and be shared but not light. So if you are someone who visits my accounts because you are interested in me, I’m hoping you will figure out your answer to what I have said through me rather than find it easily and make conclusions about me. I am the most important person to everyone.

10: Then do you think you haven’t strayed too far from what you wanted to be like in the future when you were 14?
(laugh) Yes. Regardless of what I’m doing, I do think I’ve managed to maintain some of what I felt at the bottom of my heart back then so I’m extremely satisfied. And by satisfied, I’m not saying that I have more and am richer but that I’m not ashamed because I have managed to uphold the roots to what is at the bottom of my heart. I would be embarrassed if that was empty ten years later even if I may become rich throughout Asia and make millions. Of course, when I say this, the response is, “Bottom of your heart? Talk again, after you make millions!” (laugh)

10: Then how do you see yourself in ten years from now? Is there anything that at least vaguely pops into your mind?
Hm, it might not exist. But if it did… I do think I’d be a pretty awesome person if I could look back on myself when I was 25 and not feel ashamed about who I am at 35. I’m hoping that the path I’ve been on so far will have paved a way for kids like me.

10: In that sense, I think one of the things that “SungKyunKwan Scandal” has given to you is more freedom from reality.
Yes, it’s very important to me. Freedom was the word I mentioned the most when I was around 21. And I looked very hard for it because until I turned 20, I was deprived of freedom for the three years after I arrived in Seoul and worked. I think freedom for people who are out in society is about how well they control what they feel inside. I think I can control about six things out of ten inside me after working on “SungKyunKwan Scandal,” compared to having controlled five before. It means I have gained the freedom to be able to control one more thing that’s important to me.

10: If having the freedom to be yourself is important, if that time and space is important to you, what sort of place is the home that you live in right now?
The house itself is like any other house. What’s important is not what sort of house it is but that I have my own space. But I easily get bored of living in one space so I move every year. It’s very bothersome. (laugh) How I’ve changed from the past is that these days, my friends visit my place often and sometimes even stay for days. I’ve come to be able to do my own thing even when others are around me, not just when I’m alone and isolated. I think that’s at least how comfortable I’ve become with people I’m close to.

10: I remember you having written on your Cyworld account that you didn’t willingly accept how kind the woman at your convenient store was and then regretted it the day the store shut down. It made me think that you’re still awkward when it comes to people who are nice to you unconditionally or praise you as a celebrity.
Yes, it drives me crazy. (laugh) It’s gotten worse because a lot of people watched our drama but I just can’t stand it! Of course, as an actor and celebrity, it also feels good and I’m proud in a way. I’m so happy and thankful when ladies at restaurants come to me and ask for my autograph, saying that their daughters are my fans. But anything more than that is uncomfortable. I wish they wouldn’t even say, “A-in, you’re so good looking!” but keep it at around “I’m having fun watching your drama.” I feel like dying when people tell me things like, “All the girls ever do when they get together is talk about you!” I just don’t know how to respond to that and it doesn’t seem right to say thank you. Or should I just be bold and say, “Yea, I was cool in it, wasn’t I?” Anyway, it’s hard for me to deal with more extreme forms of expressions. And it’s not just me as an actor — I think I don’t feel quite comfortable with such things even when it comes to love or the person I’m dating.

10: You may increasingly feel more uncomfortable in the future.
It’s not that I want my privacy to be respected because I’ll protect it whether others respect it or not. But I do think that it’ll be more uncomfortable to go outside now since I’m actually the type that used to go walk about easily and go to Myungdong without my hat on. I wish it would be easier to do. But I guess I should be thankful about even being able to say this right now and I feel grateful and happy about it.

10: Last question. What is the furthest you think of when it comes to the future?
I think it’s tomorrow. I think it is possible that I cease to exist any moment and there was a time when I used to live every day of my life engulfed with that thought. I wasn’t thinking that I want to die but there was a time when I thought I don’t need to wake up the next day. That I wouldn’t feel sad or bad in particular if I didn’t get to see another day of my life. I was in despair. But I overcame those times and I’m alive. (laugh) I do think though I could get through today but not exist tomorrow. That’s why today, this time right now and what I’m doing right now is much more important to me than what I’ll be doing in ten years. I came to realize that after I spending such times.


Reporter : Choi Ji-Eun
Photographer : Chae ki-won
Editor : Lee Ji-Hye , Jessica Kim
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  • msclockwatcher msclockwatcher says:

    I still have to catch up on this drama but he really was the hottest guy in the drama – no wonder so many fans are crazy about him. How cute that he doesn’t like to be told that he’s hot.

  • leila8mae says:

    I totally dig his smile!! I just melt everytime he smiles!! haha!! I think I died and rose again and died yet again because of him!! haha!! this craziness is really driving me nuts! and when I read this interview, I think I’ve fallen for him MORE! he’s answers are just overwhelmingly AWESOME!! just very admirable for a young man to think this way already.. I love EVERY word! moreso its meaning..

    I understood his take on Jae Shin more.. and its very interesting that he really made Jae Shin REAL and how he connected himself to his character made it more genuine.. that’s the reason why I think among all the second lead guys, Jae Shin’s angle is the most heartbreaking.. i cried during the farewell scene he had with Yoon-hee.. *sobs*.. it was just simple.. but i guess, his smile made my tears fall..

    I feel like if there’s atleast three Korean actors I’d get a chance to interview, he’d definitely be ONE of them..

  • WOW nicely done! 😀 Moon jae shin is gna be one of my fave drama characters for a long loooonnnnng time.

    • leila8mae says:

      hiccup boy is the BEST second lead guy to date! he really stood out in SKKS!! badass red messenger but with such a tender-loving heart!!

  • Precious says:

    Why does he remind me of a poet? He’s so vague yet clear at the same time; I know women usually love bad boys but I think we prefer tortured souls to them, this interview and some others that I’ve read make that abundantly clear though it would seem he’s gotten a lot better than before. Lol @ him not liking to receive compliments about his looks, hopefully he’ll learn how to get over it soon because it’s not going to stop. He’s so ridiculously adorable, and actually has a functioning brain with independent thoughts to boot, no wonder he’s my soulmate (I will fight you all for him don’t try me!).

    • couchkimchi says:

      precious WE love your comments but I think you have to contend with us here in CK! Don’t you dare us!! hahaha

      keep on posting girl!! 😉

    • leila8mae says:

      Yoo Ah In has a mind of his own and he commands it very well! I personally love his writings.. its bold and he wears his heart on his sleeves.. I find him more attractive now more than ever!! haha!!

      I recently watched “Antique Bakery”.. he’s really very young then but his character is very direct and demanding!! Actually, he’s good enough to be the boss of the bakery! He’s very stubborn as an employee!! Yoo Ah In’s transformation in SKKS really showed that his now a full-fledged MAN!! *hotness!!*

      I can’t wait for his next project.. whatever it is, I’ll watch..

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